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24.01.2022 I find it almost funny that one of the biggest concerns about fat bodies is bad health. When I was starving myself all week and binging all weekend- no one seemed concerned for my health. When I was at the gym morning and night, regardless of whether I was sick, injured or exhausted- no one seemed concerned for my health.... When I hated my body so much that it led to self harm- no one seemed concerned for my health. Let's stop pretending that it's about health, when it's really just fatphobia. Eating Disorders aren't healthy. Anorexia Athletica is not healthy. Body Dysmophic Disorder is not healthy. If you really care about fat people's health, get educated and start advocating for proper access to medical care, fight against weight stigma and accept the fact that body diversity is a real thing.
20.01.2022 Sometimes we want something so badly, that we're willing to lie to ourselves about reality. This was me at the start too. First it was convincing myself the tiny meals I was eating was enough. I was eating what I wanted (a big step for me!) but in teeny-tiny portions. I was too afraid of weight gain to eat how much I really needed and lied to myself that I was just "honouring my fullness".... Then when I learnt about the law of attraction, it didn't take long for me to imagine manifesting the perfect body. I remember photoshopping my head on Kim Kardashian's body thinking that because I wasn't actively restricting that it was just a bit of fun. And over the years there were lots more indirect ways I was secretly wishing my body smaller. It wasn't until I stopped lying to myself about all the ways this was hurting me, that I made really progress. If you have had an eating disorder or disordered eating in the past, as confronting and uncomfortable as it is, please know until you are are truly willing to accept your body and give up the dream of being small, you'll always be in limbo. More than anything else, this step is the most important and it's the only way you will be free
16.01.2022 Finally have a few days off to enjoy being a school mum
15.01.2022 I wrote this the other day, I didn't share it. I write heaps of shit and don't share it. The inner critic thinks I'll stay safe that way. I'm tired of staying stuck in the fear..... "Why are mum's so exhausted? Yeah, we all know the not enough sleep one, but how about the mental load? ... I didn't even know this phrase before I became a mum. I didn't need to. But now I have a name for that soul draining to-do list that takes up most of my brain space. It's not just the to-do's- it's everything. The routines, the dates, the planning, the deadlines, the remembering. CEO's are paid millions for this kind of planning and overseeing, but we do it for free day in and day out. No, I don't have any answers. Maybe if there was some room in my brain I could come up with some. But if you often feel like you're drowning, barely able to come up for air- the mental load is probably why."
08.01.2022 Posting a pic of my fat arms, because the more I allow myself to be seen, the less shame I feel. Shame hides in the dark. It festers and expands. Shining a light on my biggest insecurities means I no longer have to hide.... Once I'm able to accept myself, no one else's opinion matters.
07.01.2022 Here's your daily reminder that you're perfect just the way you are #normalisenormalbodies
06.01.2022 You're important too. Don't forget that
04.01.2022 This belief alone has changed the way I view my body. It's helped me more than anything else to learn how to accept myself. Instead of worrying what people think (and be honest, it's a biggie!) I just tell myself "If they have a problem with my body, that's THEIR problem, not mine". That's right. Instead of spending all my energy ruminating over what other's think, I take my power back.... Because I know if they're judging me, laughing at me, mocking me, disgusted by me- the problem lies with them, not me. If others want to be caught up in a world where anything other than the flawless ideal won't do, then they're welcome to live there. Again, this is not MY problem. It couldn't be further from my control (or my responsibility) to live up to society's expectations of how my body should be. The burden to live up to these expectations is no longer there, because I stopped blaming my body and started looking at the twisted world view instead. Seriously, fuck what they think. Put your sexy undies on. Buy a bikini. Wear that bod-con dress. Give the unrealistic expectations a big
