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18.01.2022 Repeat after me: I AM A QUEEN and please don’t forget it.

11.01.2022 What’s your word for this year?! It popped up in one of @muchelleb videos I thought about it and gave up.... Then @thequeenofconfidence mentioned it and then @ameetriscari So it kept popping up again.... But I had sooo many words To be fair, 2020 wasn’t so bad for me, definitely when compared to the year before! My work/business was hurt - but I learnt to pivot. Somewhere amidst the social distancing, back when were in ISO, I awaited a call from my Dr, that came an hour late. He asked me if I was driving, and said I needed to pull over. these are not the words you want to hear when your waiting on test results. Anyways, huge loud ugly crying commenced in an Aldi car park. Remission & monitoring was mentioned. But all I heard was cancer free, for the first time in 4 years not only had my cancer cells not grown, they’d depleted and they’d disappeared - Gone. None. Didn’t exist.... I was diagnosed with cervical & endometrial cancer when I was pregnant with my son. I had my first haemorrhage at 10 weeks pregnant & 3 more followed. Each time I went to the hospital alone. My results weren’t meet with love and support. In fact, the opposite. I was shamed and made to feel like it was something I needed to keep to myself. Apparently this proved that I was worthless. After my son was born I started treatment, which I did. Alone. I had procedures in my drs office that I should have had done in hospital under anaesthetic, with a 4yr old and newborn in tow. Driving home with ice packs.... Because I had no help, I had no support. I had no power, I’d given it all away. I didn’t think enough of myself, to stand up for myself and demand what I deserved. Or to have the strength to walk away when it wasn’t forthcoming. Getting my ‘All clear’ was bittersweet - it reminded me of the what I went through to get it, and how small and insignificant I tried to make myself, in order to keep another happy. And I no longer remember meaning that little to myself.... but I don’t want to forget. So, that’s my 2021, I am taking back my power. I’m no longer leaving it in other peoples hands. This year I do, I get what I want.... #papsmearssavelives

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