Amy Benn | Public figure
Amy Benn
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24.01.2022 6. B O Y F R I E N D . Mum said he was a bad influence, but she was happy that I was "safe". He was contributing to the lack of sleep, he wined and dined me and together that summer when we first got together was in many ways the best time of our lives. . At the end of it in mid February (after O week) where we went to the traffic light party at Deakin University. I fell into another exhausted hole.... . And with the new found love, late nights, 4 jobs and scanty sleep... I relapsed again. . Though for the first time due to diligently taking control of my own health, I got a blood test, booked in an appointment and my specialist put me on steroids and Mesasalazine along with the Azathioprine I was already taking. . I remember our internet at home was out, so we went to the local library because we had to choose my timetable. I was on the floor in pain in the fetal position, darling dazz was booking my tutorial classes. . He turned out to be a keeper. See more
24.01.2022 10. R E S I S T A N C E . I chose to run because thats what I thought it ment to be fit and healthy. . And was I wrong... For me, my body type is a Mesomorph in the fitness industry, a Pitta-vata in Auvedic medicine and a Fire type in Chineese medicine. Im also a "Protagonist" in the Myers briggs personality test.... . All this means is that I have a sharp mind, I'm a determination visionary, with a strong work ethic and I am prone to "inflammation" and poor digestion. . Also, this post demonstrates my mindset which has preference to interlectualize, apply evidence and theories and exhaust all beneficial options. . The point im trying to make is that my health rapidly imoroved when I cut back the hours of endurance training, and started resistance training. . More muscle is an undeniable key to good health. It simulates all the good hormones, and the increased muscle mass drove my metabolism to new heights. . Leaving me with new found energy and vitality that I had never felt before. Win! See more
22.01.2022 15. I M P E R F E C T . During my last (ever) relapse on the cold shitty hospital bed in 2015. I thought for a moment on giving up on my goal of competing as a fitness model. I only chose to switch my sport from endurance training to Bodybuilding because the goal of gaining muscle was good for me. I knew that eating more food, resting, being more disciplined with my healthy eating and gaining weight would be a good thing for my health. . After the relapse I was put on th...e "Low Residue Diet" I kept up my 5-6 meals a day with salmon, eggs, tuna, steak and chicken. My carbs were rice and quinoa which was fine... . And instead of eating my vegetables... I just juiced them. By extracting the fibre and drinking the nutrients allowed me to absorb the goodness. . And hense there you have it, my method of eating well during times of inflammation. . This woman stood by me. And her philosophy was always "just make one consistent positive change at a time". Muscle growth, a fired up metabolism and a lean physique is not rocket science... . Its compliance. And compliance comes from setting a goal, educating yourself, and getting someone or something to be accountable. Trish was my coach. . Also when it comes to your diet. Stick with it, be over prepared and improvise. . Ill also mention that during my poor health I had time off training. I then only trained 2 days a week for a month, slowly I increased the sessions only as tolerated and work always came first. . My health always comes first, and work was always priritized before training. This time, it was literally one day a time, one meal at a time. Head down and one foot in front of the other. . Massive doubts came over me, I remembered all the limitations that were placed on me when I was initially diagnosed. . How dare I think I could achieve something great... . Until... Well, you will just have to wait for tomorrows... See more
22.01.2022 20. P R E P A R E D M Y S E L F . Probably never be an athlete . As I was working in education, I was actually for the first time since I started working at 14, working regular hours. . ... I couldn't believe the way my body and health responded as my sleep dramatically improved. . All of a sudden my training was amazing each morning before work, and with more muscle mass and dramatically less stress (as i didn't have to be on edge and monitoring critical patients at 4am). . So, I took it apon myself to coach myself to the WBFF stage. (The most prestigious in the world). . I educated myself with training and nutrition cources, got Dazz to pinch the skin folds that I couldn't reach each week, graphed them on an excel spreadsheet and tweaked my nutrition as required. . Again, this time I strengthened that confidence in myself that good health and achieving goals are still possible whilst living with Crohns. . To date, that stage appearence has been my best athletic performance. Taking myself through a prep where I was accountable for myself, the posing and organizing the whole trip up to the gold coast. . Although... I didnt win, and I am not a professional athlete, so I have placed that goal on the back burner for a while. . I saw a video yesterday of a 6 year old boy who loves playing footy despite having Crohns disease. Made my heart melt! . To me, I just love participating and showing myself that I am capable of doing anything with determination and self care. . There was a moment when the show was over where I was devistaded about my performance! I did something where I totally sabotahed myself! Cant wait to tell you about it tomorrow! . #crohnsandcolitisawarenessmonth #flushthestigma See more
22.01.2022 8. N U T R I T I O N . I was put on the "Low Residue" diet many times. Which is where you avoid eating fibrous foods to "rest the gut". During those times and at this stage, I would have chicken, tuna and rice. . Maybe some spinach and BBQ sauce too. I would have sustagen and yogurt to maintain weight. I remember craving vegetables so bad! It was torture watching others eat them, and even worse when they left them on their plate. ... . At the time this pic was taken i honestly thought it was healthy! I was eating cereal and milk for breakfast, an apple, muesli bar and yogurt mid morning, and dinner was pasta, some vegetables and mostly minced meat. I was always health conscious and would do my best to avoid take away, deep fried and processed foods. . Though that still didn't stop me consuming all the packet stuff, liquid calories and the refined white stuff I call sugar. I'm not sure how much nutrients I absorbed back then, but I never had a full iron count. . And what's worse? I had so many iron transfusions I build up an allergy to them. Which was so painful, as when my Iron dropped to 1, and my resting heart rate was 110bpm, I had to take supplements that would take months to boost it up, and caused even more constipation and painful symptoms. . It's a wonder how I managed to get through uni, work, placements ect. Eventually I found a few "Healthy Websites" which were blogs, they offered recipes made from this new stuff called Quinoa, encouraged you to eat salmon and brocolli and finally I found ways to get more vegetables in. . It wasn't until I started getting serious in my sports that I flipped my diet on its head. My new breakfast, and philosophy on food and who helped me will be revealed tomorrow... See more
22.01.2022 12. T U R M O I L . In some ways, going home is worse than being in hospital. As reality sets in, and it's time to make drastic life changes and decisions along with feeling absolutely shit. . In a giant hole, and trying to dig out but with crilping abdominal pain, bloating, diarrhea, nausea, fatigue, cold sweats, swollen joints from steroids among other things.... . It was hard work. I was terrified because my job, my hobbies and my study were all contributing to the inflammation. Though I felt I had no choice but put on my best front and somehow pay my mortguage, along with the never ending medical bills rolling in. . I trained only on days off (twice a week) and just managed to get through my shifts. I quit uni, and spent a bit of time trying to rest. . Though the problem was, the steroids tipped my mental health over the edge and I became Anxious. I don't use that word lightly, as I was never formally diagnosed. . I had many anxiety attacks and spirals on this very green rug. I could not think straight, breath straight or pull myself together, this happened most days for a couple of months. . I knew it was because of the steroids, I could feel them race my heart and send my mind spiraling out of my control, along with the consequent emotions. . And yet again, the very thing I was doing had such profound impacts on my health. See more
22.01.2022 The best fun with @kingcrohns doing a FACEBOOK LIVE for the @crohns_and_colitis_australia @livefearlesschallenge
21.01.2022 3. T H E B E G I N I N G Where it all began. I first started having symptoms at 14 over the summer break. On and off, I ignored them, and mostly kept them to myself. Being part of a big family I didn't want to stress mum. I knew there was something wrong when I was shopping for school shoes mid Jan when I broke out in a cold sweat. Goosebumps covered my body, I had constant cramps and suddenly very vigilant and aware of public toilets, and these episodes becam...e common. It was a slippery slope, I started sleeping after school and feeling very tired. This went on till March, and I was only until after multiple trips to my GP, that they asked for a stool specimen. Mum left a bowl in the toilet, and when she saw how much blood I was loosing she took me to Emergency that night. I was 5 foot 6, I weighed in at 47 kilos. The Nurses told mum to take me home and that I was fine. (I had been compensating well, and could put on a good front). Mum refused. (Legend) . They saw my Pathology and admitted me straight away. I learnt that day mum is a strong woman. That your intuition is something that must always be investigated. And that my darling mother was always looking after me. . This is a Pic of me at school, though in my Year 9 Yearbook I was the school captain and "absent" in school photos. See more
20.01.2022 28. D I L I G E N C E . When it comes to changing your diet and habits and having the health and body you want... . It is never just "one thing".... . Ever! People tell me their day on a plate and ask how they can do better... Peple tell me what they eat for breakfast every morning and how I make the effort all the time. . And my response always comes down to habits. Never change too much at once. Only change one thing at a time. . Creating new habits is just like creating a new track in a forest. When you go out on your own, you cant see more than one step ahead of you, you don't know what you will face, how long it will take and even if you are in the right direction. Many obstacles come up. . Just like when I changed my breakfast from toast to a green smoothie. I faced so many obstacles. Like having the ingredients always in the fridge, working out a balance of fruit and cucumber that I liked, then there is avoiding blender explosions, keeping the noise down and getting up earlier to put it all together. . And of course, avoiding toast in the mornings (easier when there is no bread) . The two main points I am making is that behavior change comes down to addressing and changing just one thing at a time. Just pave one new track in the forest, get some scratches, get a little lost and have patience in the time it takes to get up the hill. . And repeat that breakfast process for morning tea. Do it enough times over enough time and you will have a complete transformation. . Also... Get a "why" a goal and a good coach. . #crohnsandcolitisawarenessmonth #flushthestigma See more
20.01.2022 2. I N N O C E N C E . I loved my childhood. Full of love, ambitions, mud pies in the backyard and dress ups. . IBD has a genetic component, it's an autoimmune disease that effects the gastrointestinal system. Often triggered by the environment. Please understand IBD IS NOT Irritable Bowel Syndrome or "IBS" which is a localised response in the gut.... . Also... With recent research exploring the role of the Gut microbiome. I will share that from 18 months (back in the early 90's) I did recieve multiple courses of antibiotics before a tonsillectomy. Which may have effected the billions of bacteria developing and expanding inside me at that age. . My feelings about this is... Thank you! To Mum, Dad, my grandparents and the hospital staff. For doing the best you could with the knowledge, resources and understanding you had at the time. . If you are involved in research regarding the gut, stress and bacteria. Please keep going! If you are involved in changing practise in this area. Also, please keep going! It's important. . That's me on the left... Starting early. See more
19.01.2022 22. F A T I G U E . Todays post is not about how well I live with Crohn’s, but instead how I am always reluctantly, forcefully embracing the struggle. . At this time, I was working with my Gasterointerologist and also Doctor of Nutritional therapies Tasj. ... . I know from professional and personal experience that the western and eastern health industries don't communicate, believe in or appreciate each other well. . I exhausted every referal and avenue in the western system, and I wanted more. I looked into another philosophy. I believe the brain and gut are connected and our thoughts and emotions impact our health. . I had to learn to rest, and use techniques like meditation, breathing, therapy and journalling to start to switch on the "Rest and digest" or Parasympathetic Nervous system. . This was a difficult time, I was sleeping 12 hours for weeks, I only managed a walk around the block. Struggling to get through a physical day at work, maintain some of my relationships and just holding my marriage and finances together. . There was a lot of cuddles on the couch. . I share this because I know there is always the 50/50, the balance. Everything worthwhile takes effort, every sucess has problems to solve, every advancement takes courage and determination. . I also felt incredibly vulnerable and lost, I would describe it as being weak, on my hands and knees alone in a dark room, blind and feeling around for a light switch I didn't know existed. . But what kept me going was knowing that I really had nothing to loose. And it paid off! . Personally I believe in an evidence based approach to health. I would never take anything that is not prescribed. . I also believe that the remaining 23 hours and 59 minutes in the day when I wasnt taking medication, was a wonderful opportunity to help myself. . In short... Do the tests and take the medicine... Gratefully! So much work has gone into making it available for us and we have a phenomenal system at our fingertips. . Also, do your bit and eat healthy, look after your mental health, include relaxation and meditation in your daily routine. Contribute to your community and get in nature. . See more
18.01.2022 26. E N V I R O N M E N T . One of my favorite quotes is "No such thing as bad weather, only bad clothing". . This jacket is my invincible wonder woman cloak. I was visiting my husband in Washington DC and decided I needed to see NYC.... . So, I took a flight on my own and booked a cheap dorm and went to the city of dreams. I got dangerous hypothermia when I realized that I had been shivering inside a museum next to a heater for 2 hours after thinking I could explore central park in a US winter with an Aussie Jacket. Oops. . I was so restricted as I had to keep reheating myself with hot water at starbucks every 2 hours... Until I finally bought this insulated coat. . All of a sudden I was invincible and free to climb all the rocks, see all the sights and travel all the streets of NYC without a fear of hypothermia. . And this involved the snow, the wind, rain, hail and everything in between. We are ment to be outside as humans. . We are ment to see the sun everyday, and emerse ourselves in nature. Someone asked me to post more about my Crohns, and I believe the healing properties of nature are pivotal. . To see the beauty in every season, the colors, and the diffetent shades of light at all hours of the day facinate me. . I believe that not only eating loads of seasonal vegetables is good for your gut microbiome, but also to get all the dirt under your nails, on your knees in your hands and under your feet. . Emersing ourselves in nature is so healing. I often "earth" myself just by walking around in the grass. I am known for ocean swims in the middle of winter and my numerous indoor plants. . It is super easy to find all the parks in our local area. And when I'm having a serious conversation with my husband we go walking, kick the soccer ball or shoot hoops just to move the energy. . Moral of the story is that nature will stimulate the Parasympathetic Nervous system, which is healing for autoimmune diseases. . Make it a daily practice. . #crohnsandcolitisawarenessmonth #flus See more
18.01.2022 7. N U R S I N G . Somehow, I made it! Through pure learning, being diligent with my treatment (which I tried everything my specialist suggested) including rectally inserting meds. I made it through OK. . Maybe because I eventually got over the partying lifestyle after a while, and put my head down.... . Uni was a relatively good time, I avoided hospital, turned 21 and secured my career with my chosen hospital. . Not to mention the connections made here. My passion for health stemmed from a Nurse called Wendy at Knox hospital on the Pediatric ward. Wendy was so smart, caring and compassionate. She had a way for always making me feel better just by walking in the room. . This sterred my decision to peruse nursing, to "pay it forewrd" and help others heal and feel better too. . And, what i have learned in my career is that nothing is guaranteed. And everything has a consequence. . Everyones time is running out, and what inspires me most is when people in the midst of the worst pain and suffering, can still find; Gratitude Happiness Humor Compassion . And somehow take all the shit things about their situation, and put it together to make something that has a positive impact on their surroundings. . Tag a nurse who has inspired you! See more
18.01.2022 11. R O C K B O T T O M . This was my last (ever) hospital admission. And also the worst, most terrifying life moment... . It was March 2015, and when I rattle off my commitments to you, you will clearly see the cause of my problems.... . I was working full time in ICU, with all the late earlies, the nights and over time. I was also training 5 days a week as I had my first comp approaching in May. I had just thrown my own engagement party in mums backyard the week before. I was also studying my Post Graduate Diploma of Nursing. I became very good at utilizing every waking minute of time towards "doing" and just had another double strength black coffee when I got too tired. . I was so unaware of the state of my health that I refused it was even my Crohns that bought me into Emergency with crippling abdominal pain. It was the time that berries were contaminated with hepatitis and I was convincing everyone around me that "I ate the berries" . My pathology told the true story. This was very scary because I was already on the maximum dose of Azathioprine. . That cold hospital bed was very humbling. A good slap across the face. I was worked up towards going on the Infleximab. Something I absolutely didn't want. Definitely not at 25, and definitely not before I had a family. I was dosed up on steroids... A large dose! . I'm grateful the steroids worked and I narrowly missed surgery. . 1. I was terrified because of what was at stake. I had a mortguage, engaged to a wonderful man, and we want to have a family one day. . 2. I was terrified because the career I had chosen for myself, being in such a stressful environment, working physically and around the clock was hurting my health. . 3. I was terrified because my only positive coping strategy of lifting weights was no longer helping me now, my body was too inflamed and I needed rest. . This was the start of the worst of it, as ill elaborate on tomorrow... See more
17.01.2022 All the steps! . How funny that 5kms was challenging at the start of the month, and now on day 26 im powering through! . @crohns_and_colitis_australia @livefearlesschallenge
15.01.2022 5. A L C O H O L . Yep, I went there. When I finished school, got my license and started working 4 jobs all of a sudden I was a free cashed up bogan. . Smirnoff blacks were my usual choise sometimes with a large dash of raspberry cordial, which made for sticky fingers and loose times.... . It definitely was a summer to remember! (for what I remembered) I thought I was invincible, partying at Cheers on Tuesdays back when you could "toss the boss" Daisy's on Thursdays (because it was local) and the Hawthorn or into the city on Saturdays. . 4am was the usual home time on Saturdays where I would maybe sleep from 5am till 7am to be a lifeguard at 8am every Sunday. I even had a little too much raspberry one night and it came up on the neighbors perfect nature's strip, where a patch of dead grass existed for the whole summer. . And then... Yeh, you guessed it, tomorrow's post will explain. See more
15.01.2022 17. M A G I C "Probably never get married" . A few months after my first comp, I married my divine husband. My marriage is the most sacred thing in my entire life. ... . Being married is so precious and I absolutely love being a wife every single day. . I see my marriage as an achievement because it takes a lot patience, care, love and attention. . For me, I'm unsure if I can mother his children, travel, or give him the life he deserves. As my future is uncertain. . Not only that, but the fatigue, pain, treatments, moods, anxiety and emotions all play a role in my ability to show up in my marriage. . Though I think it is all in your attitude and all a choice. I could allow my illness to dictate what we do, or I can take it my stride and work around it. . I love this picture because it represents our determination and ambition. Not only did we manage to pay all the medical bills and the wedding but we took care of each other through the hard times. . This image really represents how we work. Darryn is introverted and pragmatic, walking steadily in a straight line, taking long strides, sometimes pulling me along. Usually figuring out how things work, and often cracking subtle one liners to keep it simple and light. . And there is me, looking up, around at the trees and into the horizon. Planning where we should go, why we should go there and what joy it will bring us. . Darryn moves fast and breaks things, I steer us in the right direction, add all the color's and emotions and check behind us to make sure everything is accounted for and cleared up. . We have both worked the hardest, and sacrificed the most for each other. We have the most respect, compassion and understanding for each other. . And we are made for each other. . If I can say anything about being a good partner in uncertain or difficult times, it's to listen. Understanding their "Love language" there are 5, you can google it. And make life as normal as possible. . #crohnsandcolitisawarenessmonth #flushthestigma See more
14.01.2022 18. T R A V E L . "Probably never travel" . The thought of traveling the world for long periods was always something I was told would be difficult. ... . Being on Immunosuppressive agents, it was a huge ordeal to just have my vaccinations, let alone be so exposed to the dangers of developing countries, new bugs and a long way away from health care. . Most people thought I was crazy going to India for our honeymoon. . What about your health? What are you doing to do if you get sick? Why on earth would you take that chance? . Yes, this was terrifying, uncertain and perhaps nieve. I felt safer after talking with my doctors about it, and developing plan A, B, C, D and E. . I explained that having an uncertain future made me want to see the most culturally diverse cities while I could, while I was young, in good health and with medications. . Off we went! I got sick mid way through, so did Darryn. It was a funny 48 hours to look back on now. I followed the plan, and surprising, I was incredibly resilient. . All the extra fitness, musle mass and good health made for a better reserve to get over the bug that we sharred, and which didnt trigger a relapse that we were concerned about. . And I got a once in a lifetime experience. See more
14.01.2022 9. E N D U R A N C E . It was around 22 when I was working in palliative care. I had just moved in with Dazz (the boyfriend) and a new found independence and adulting took place where we managed life together. . To release the stress of work, and the burden of a mortguage I started running. I loved it so much. Out in the forest I would go, clocking up so many kilometers.... . The next year, I completed 6 half-marathons and an Olympic Distance Triathlon. I got help from a coach @duraceldo who taught me how lift weights to strengthen my knees and shoulders. . But most importantly, he taught me how to taper nutrition for performance. I remember trembling with fear as I handed over the most money I had ever spent on myself for education, Personal training and coaching. . It turned out to be the most important investment in my health. And so my journey began! This was the time where I had complete autonomy over my nutrition (as I had left the "nest") and my own kitchen became a sanctuary for optimal fuel and nourishment. . My typical breakfast turned into an omelette with veggies, I started haveing green smoothies so i could get more food in, and I doubled the volume of food i was consuming. I loved my new found energy, my ability to run further and further. . And every now and then with my sleep, stress, training and nutrition all lined up... I hit a half matathon just on two hours! . Although I was winning, I was definitely tired, running so much, and full time shift work was hard... Stay tuned for tomorrow to see what i did next.... See more
12.01.2022 24. B E G O O D . Feminine energy. . There are 5 love languages.... 1. Acts of service 2. Quality time 3. Words if affirmation 4. Physical touch 5. Gifts Once I got to know them, and made my husband do the quiz. I discovered his number 1 is "Acts of Service" . Care for those who tolerate you. Add so much value to their lives in any way you can so they will stick around when you feel shit. . My husband has had to peel me off the floor or couch multiple times, listen to way to much trauma I bring home from ICU and intervene more than I would wish on a young man. . And this pic says it all, he took this as I was vacuuming, when I figured out his love language and he was sitting on the couch. . Be thoughtful and compassionate. In between the waves of nausea, I get up and clean the house. Or just do the washing. Or just go out my way to help someone else. . On a sunday, I like turn my ovan on, put a whole chicken and some whole potatoes in there (no need to chop) microwave some broccoli when its done and I have just fed my family. . Social isolation is a real problem. I have learned to actively work on my relationships. I make sure I send one meaningful message to a girlfriend every day if I am not seeing someone in person. I make contact or do one thing for a family member each day, and do one thing for my husband each day. . I grew up in a house of 6, with 5 bedrooms. And with technology we are becoming more isolated then ever. I take a very proactive approach to always be compassionate and generous. Give less of yourself, but more thoughtfully and meaningfully. . Get to know your own love language, and the tendencies of your loved ones. Be their biggest cheerleader in anyway you can and don't hold back. Volunteer for your community, get out and talk to strangers. Share your heart and be kind. See more
12.01.2022 29. L E T I T G O . When I talk about Crohns disease, I also want to mention that a lot of us suffer from being all too clogged up and constipated. . Sometimes I worry about what people think about me, where I can find the nearest bathroom or what that person said back in 2015.... . All this chatter does is just bind me up! And it's only been in recent years that I have been able to let a lot of worries go. And step further into living by my own values and not dictated by what I think would win the approval of someone else (who doesn't care anyway) . And so I started to find a little more humor in life! To sit in the chaos of the day and make fun of myself or situations. . Obviously I am pretending to be a witch on a broom stick here as I sent this image to my Reiki pals who I read tarot cards for/with. . Or it could be a surprise penis with a rubber glove image sent to my husband. . What ever floats your boat. . Laughter is an important part of health and healing. For some reason I always have a good evacuation after a good laugh. . Not by eating celery. . As difficult as it is, I hope that I am showing you that being true to you, not worrying about what others think is very liberating. . I have no shame sharing my story, my struggles and things I do on the daily to live a wholhesrted life. I would much rather be respected for my true opinion, than liked for showing a small section of myself which makes people comfortable. . All I can say is, embrace change, clean out the cupboards of your house and the cobwebs of your mind. . #crohnsandcolitisawarenessmonth #flushthestigma See more
11.01.2022 23. F U T U R E . Were not sure what her future will be . It sounds crazy, but all I did was give it a good crack.... . In 2018, at 27, (after spending time on the couch, see my last post). I jumped full time into being a professional fitness model, actress and personal trainer. . I never wanted to leave Nursing, in fact I clung on for a little too long than I should have. Grieving every shift as they got further and further apart, and I had less and less days in my schedule where I could do a shift. . This was the first time I was off all medications after working with tasj and my gut microbiome. . And it was a perfect time to go and explore the world, my role as an entrepreneur and ability to make it all up on the fly! . My career took me to amazing places, and the conversations I had with peopke of influence and other industries really encouraged me to dream big and believe that anything is possible. . So there I was, the girls with Crohns and Nurse from Montrose who only wore scrubs and leggings on her days off was flown around the country, working with incredible people and brands and even made it on national television a few times. . Although the work was inconsistent, I was paid in comers and decimals baby! . I would put my success in the modeling industry down to a few things. . Work ethic: Nothing was ever as hard as ICU Nursing. Even at the end of multiple days and long hours, I never complained. All I had to do was stand, maybe smile ect. I wasn't taking care of critically ill patients. . Relentlessly Professional: Again, nothing was ever as hard as ICU Nursing. All I had to do was arrive on time and prepared. There was one time I was the only one sobre... Piece of cake when you have skills as a Nurse. . Courage and self belief: I was getting better at managing my health and wellness and this was giving me confidence to take my career in my own hands for a while and see what happens when you work for yourself. . #crohnsandcolitisawarenessmonth #flushthestigma See more
11.01.2022 21. S W E E T E N O U G H . Probably have symptoms for life . There was that moment when I got off stage that I was completely devistaded and thought I had blown it.... . I had been prepping for months, which ment I made all my own food from scratch so it was super clean. . During the show backstage, there was an amazing platter put on, full of protein balls, lollies, chocolate ect. . Of course I had some (maybe too much) and my stomach blew up like a balloon! Trying to hide being bloated in a bikini is rediculus! . I self consciously got up and rocked it out anyway, in pain and did my best. But i knew that I could have done better! . So what i did was... Hooked up with my Doctor @tasj and we tested my gut microbiome... Which revealed that not a lot was going well! . And so from 2017 I quit refined sugar! And I know that it sounds easy in theory! But as frustrating as it was, it was more liberating! . The bargening that goes on in your mind when you're offered anything from a biscuit to a lolly to birthday cake or nan brings desserts to your house... Just a plain No! Was invigorating and saved so much more brain space for better things. . Now, when everybody stands around the dessert table, I just go and have a decent meal, a piece of fruit or a cup of tea outisde and think about the better things in life. . All in all, I am also very passionate about sugar from a professional pount of view. Childhood obesity is a serious issue where I see people who are overfed and undernourished. . A viscious cycle is happening where we buy packaged foods and hand our money to businesses who have advertising departments, who invest your money into thinking about new ways for you to give them more money and buy more processed food. . (Believe me! I learnt working in the commercial modeling industry) . To brake this cycle comes down to you. Everytime you spend your money your feeding the economy and information about what you will buy. . Choose consciously please. . #crohnsandcolitisawarenessmonth #flushthestigma See more
10.01.2022 27. C E L E B R A T I O N . Or should I say, menstruation. . Another taboo topic, but one which I embrace wholeheartedly in sharing the whole story of my health journey. .... Here goes (gulp). I never had a regular cycle. I was 14 when I was diagnosed, pretty un well after that, and on Prednisone after that. . Then I placed an Implanon in my arm at 18 and just replaced it every 3 years and I didn't see my cycle again. I removed the Implanon Feb 2017. . I knew there was a lot going on with my gut so I never worried and gave my body time. . Untill a year passed, and I was wondering when aunt red would show her face. So I did some simple Pathology. . "Post Menapausal" was what was said to me in the GPs office and a referral to a leading hormone and fertility specialist was made. . This response only fueled my desire to proove that my amazing body is capable of healing once again. . So off I went, diving into discovering what I could do to kick my natural cycle into gear. I did many things, acupuncture, adjusted my nutrition and deepened my meditation practice in consultation with my doctors and coaches. . I did another blood test to see how I was tracking... "Pre Menapausal" this time, an improvement! I said, which strengthened my fate in my beautiful body and natures cycle. . I wad advised to go and see the specialist and consider hormone therapy. Reluctantly I did, though she had a 3 month waiting list. . And in that time... It arrived! This video shows me celebrating as it came when we took a trip to vegas on the way home from NYC. 20 months total from removal to the Implanon till the first cycle. . I celebrate each cycle because it really is the pinnacle of health, when all the processes in the body align, and reproduction is possible... . #crohnsandcolitisawarenessmonth #flushthestigma See more
10.01.2022 INNOVATION . I had to pinch myself today. As a team of passionate IBD fellows, business leaders and health care professionals collaborated and brainstormed. . Each as compassionate as the other. ... . To join forces for the greater good, to focus on wellness rather than illness, and how we can foster more meaning and happiness in life with inflammatory bowel disease. . Rock on team. . Oh... And yes, live fearlessly @crohns_and_colitis_australia @livefearlesschallenge See more
09.01.2022 14. C O N N E C T I O N . Bloating, abdominal pain, fatigue and just plain exhaustion means REST. . I began to learn now, that my previous philosophy of "push hard and get through it, do what is necessary to be perfect" left me with burnt out adrenals and of course an inflamed and angry gut.... . Which left me to explore the philosophy of "rest". I remember asking a doctor for "resting guidelines" as I was occupying every hour with work, study, social media, running errands and doing things for others. . The only time I rested was when I was asleep. The concept of "white space" and "do nothing" was so foreign I couldn't see its purpose. And also so frightening as that was also when unpleasant pain, sensations and emotions would arise. I had programmed myself to use the pain and suffering as motivation, to learn more, study more, move more and do more for others. . I was pretty desperate to help myself so I made myself for 20 minutes do nothing and just lay on the couch once a day. Sometimes I slept, sometimes I drank tea. But most of the time I was alone with those thoughts and feelings of not being enough. . I think little princess Cleo picked up on it, and soon enough she was by my side during those times. I didn't understand rest, she didn't understand the businesses of constant doing. . Together we get on pretty well. . #crohnsandcolitisawarenessmonth #flushthestigma See more
09.01.2022 1. S T A T I S T I C S . It is with great joy to kick off the first day of @crohns_and_colitis_australia awareness month as the official ambassador. Each day I will be posting a snippet of my experience living with Crohns, and the lessons I have gained. I want to make it clear that I express myself as a patient through experience, and that you should seek medical advice from your physician in regards to your own health. (Now with that disclaimer out the way) I can, and w...ill be, brutally honest with you. I promise to shine a beaming light on Inflammatory Bowel Disease in hope to #flushthestigma. Age: 29 Diagnosis: Crohns Disease age 14 Relapses: 5 (which required admission to hospital) Treatment: 2 Blood transfusions, multiple iron transfusions (before I developed an allergy to them) multiple medications including; Prednisilone, Mesasalazine and Azathioprine. Profession: Nurse Location: Melbourne Hobbies/Business: Being multi passionate I have dabbled in fitness modeling, acting, Bodybuilding, personal training, nutrition and meditation. I also like to write and express myself through Wholehealth Magazine. Family: 2nd of 5 children. Happily married. Home owner. Fur mumma to Cleo. Belief: Thriving health and wellbeing is always accessible to us, should we choose to change our perspective. Anything else you want to know? See more
09.01.2022 16. "P E R S I S T A N C E" . "Probably have to give up sport" . Was something that was said in the doctors office at 14 when I was first diagnosed. The news that I lived by at the time. ... . My stage debut was the first time I stepped out of the boundaries of those guidelines. The ones said to my mum and I when I was diagnosed at 14. . By previous posts I hope you can see how this was a little more difficult for me physically. . Nothing went to plan, I endured multiple set backs, but still I kept my attitude in check and sought out positive solutions to my problems. . I remember the euphoria when I walked off stage and the reality of what I did set in. It was so magic, to stick at something for a whole year, be smashed down with obstacles and still make it. . But the best part... . Was that I proved them wrong. . I had taken responsibility for myself, my life, my health, had a go at managing it myself and did something they said would probably never happen. . This gave me the ultimate confidence in mysel. To decide what I was capable of and that maybe I didn't have to listen to those limitations. . #crohnsandcolitisawarenessmonth #flushthestigma See more
08.01.2022 25. B A L A N C E . I signed up to study my meditation teacher training because I had the idea that doing the course and taking others through a practise would hold me accountable to sit still snd breathe. . It is a good strategy, as being a Myers Briggs "Protagonist" or an ENFJ a determined visionary, I will do what is required to acheive my goals.... . And I love this picture because it shows our precious Nervous System and how it is important to balance and push deep into both sides. . Take the sympathetic side or "Flight or fight" for me I like to lift weights, tear my muscles down and put myself mentally and physically under tension. This is important. . On the other side, to balance and recover, we need to stimulate the Parasympathetic Nervous system or "Rest and digest" side which helps our bodies produce all the hormones necessary to repair, build and regenerate from our hard work. . Essentially I believe that what goes up, must come down, every action has an equal and opposite reaction. You cant expect to suceed when this Autonomic Nervous System is out of balance. . What I have found to make me more powerful is: 1. Stop taking other peoples shit on board. Become a little more enlightened, where you are able to be fully present with people, hold soace for their struggles and help if you can and if they are willing to take action. . But walk away saying "Not my problem"! And go on your merry way, having a great(ful) day and keep being your best you. . 2. The harder you rest, the harder you can work and play. Taking time specifically to tend to your self care not when you need it, but because its part if your daily life, your morning ritual or your non-negotiable. . Hope you are enjoying my posts on how I have learned to thrive with Crohns disease. There are only a few days left in May, so last chance to comment on what you want to see more of! . #crohnsandcolitisawarenessmonth #flushthestigma See more
06.01.2022 31. W I S D O M . Mum wouldn't allow any pictures when I was unwell, so this is mostly well teenage Amy, doing some Promo work for Dad. . Sinse that day at 14 in the doctor's office where the following things were said. ... . Probably find many things in life difficult like: Holding down a job or career. . Which I have happily accomplished working as a teacher of my profession, becoming a successful fitness model for a period of time running a successful business and saving lives on the daily. . Very likely to be very dependent on others. . I believe that I need my doctors and mentors just as much as ICU patients need hospitals. Though my husband and I are currently building our third property. . "Probably never have a family" . Please see the Vegas post about my menstrual cycle and how I am the happiest and healthiest I have ever been, currently. . Never be an Athlete . Though it is true, I am not a professional athlete, I got a little bit close at one stage. And I captivated the room from that stage. . My final message is that pain is enviable, in life and particularly with Crohns. Suffering is a choice and your attitude can change your entire life experience. You have every right to listen to and ignore others opinions. Live a life authentic to you. Seek out the right Doctors, Mentors, Coaches, Health professionals and friends who deeply listen to you, are open minded and genuinely want to help you, without taking your bullshit excuses. Love yourself sick! Your a divine soul who deserves all the love there is. Be kind and generous always, everyone is always fighting their own invisible battle. Compassion is the only thing that goes as deep as the bottom of the ocean and inside your own heart, and as far and as wide as the atmosphere rippling into future time and unknown space. . THE END! . #crohnsandcolitisawarenessmonth #flushthestigma See more
05.01.2022 13. A N X I E T Y . This is a good image because it has a black background, which is very reflective of how I was feeling in those few months sinse the relapse. (see previous posts for dets) . I remember having a 'meltdown' almost daily, where I would be so worked up, usually over something insignificant and have an almost out of body experience.... . I knew that I was reacting over nothing, that my body was so inflamed and the steroids were so strong that it wasn't "me" and I would eventually go back to my normal self. But I just couldn't help it, or control the emotions. . I would experience an anxiety spiral or panic attack almost daily. And I remember two things which really helped. . 1. Going to work. The fact that I was caring for someone sicker than myself and had to focus in on what I was doing with great detail was pivotal. Having somewhere to be, someone to be responsible for helped me focus. I can honestly say, that calm came over my entire body as I walked across the bridge to get into the hospital where I worked. . 2. Talking with another Nurse, who has a formally diagnosed mental illness. I really looked up to this person, and I guess he picked it up in me. It was so reasurring to know he was having experiences similar, and was still operating with a good front in the unit and held a leadership position. . I felt like I was not alone. I can't explain how I got through other than doing my absolute best and just taking one day at a time. . It seems that somehow we have become a little disconnected with our approach to health. With recent research showing the mind gut connection, it is clear that each and every organ and facet of ones health is connected. . It makes sense that illness and disease should be approached by looking into the root cause of the problem. (In my case, overworking, being in a stressful environment and lack of routine and rest). . And that treatment should include not just the necessary initial medical management. (which saved my life). But also pivotal lifestyle changes that not only addresses the cause but solves the problem by creating a new way of thinking, working, acting and being. . Which I can't wait to share! See more
03.01.2022 4. S U P P O R T . After my initial diagnosis I remember sitting in a room where the Doctor was talking to my mum. . All I herd was: ... "Probably find many things in life difficult like holding down a job or career, probably very difficult to ever have a family, never be an athlete, very likely to be very dependent on others." . Looking back now, never having a "normal" blood test result from 14 to 18, on multiple medications at such a young age, fading away with "racoon eyes" and a round face that I hid with makeup. And hiding my bloated stomach with jumpers I didn't have to take off because I was always so cold. . The doctors staremeny was probably a reasonable assumption. And at 14, I was (thankfully) just a little to young to actually think about my future plans as just getting through year 9 and dragging myself up and down a basketball court on the weekends was tough enough. . Anyway, this is a post about how well I was supported by my family. We had one toilet in the house, and with bloody stools for most of it, and going up to 15 times a day... It wasn't always the best experience. . But they defended me outside the house like a wolf pack, and called me stinky from inside the home . . Thanks team! See more
01.01.2022 19. "S U C C E S S" . "Probably never have a career" . When I was 20 and in my final year of Nursing I decided I wanted to be a teacher and leader within my profession.... . I wanted to fulfill my potential professionally and I vowed to myself that I would work and study as hard as it took to get there. . I love this picture, because it says so much. It was November 2016, and I had been working at one of Melbournes Major Metropolitan hospitals. I completed my Post Graduate studies in ICU in 2014, had my consolidation year in 2015, and started teaching at university in 2016. . I took a position in education at a hospital much closer to home, and here I am standing on the land of our newly purchased second home. . I was teaching at the hospital and university, I had regular hours which was good for my health and I absolutely loved every minute. . Here I have my hand on my heart which also covers the logo on my shirt and once again unbelievably grateful to be in such great health and to have achieved my goal in such a short time. . And thus, my facination with proving wrong those sentences that were said in the doctors office that day I was diagnosed continues. . And also into the next chapter... See more
01.01.2022 MY MEDITATION CLASS! . 9AM SATURDAYS @spartansgymandfitness . Well done for continuing to show up for you and your wellbeing.... . Thank you to the team @spartansgymandfitness for our sacred space. See more
